She's In Denial.

31 July 2007

There's a phrase that goes like this..

You're just not there when I needed you so.

It explains..

Left`alone
7/31/2007 10:59:00 PM™

I felt heartbroken.. Even though I said that I forgive him, but it still hurts deep down.

So cold, so cold that my nerves started shivering.

But i still acted strong in school.

I cried with every single unhappiness i've met.

I so wished that he would surprise me with his arrival, but no there weren't.

The cramps hurt. Hurt so much till I can't really walk.

I called him, no reply.

When he call, he's at Marina Bay.

Enjoyment i guess.

Pancake and hotcake fought.

Both of them are bleeding.

Hotcake's face was injured.

Her butt was injured. Both bled.

She's in great pain. I can feel her cry.

Pancake's leg was bleeding.

So red that I feel her pain. I can feel her cry too.

I msg-ed him. No reply.

He called some time later.

And the overwhelming pain inside me was released.

KaiBoon told me that it's nothing much. But to me, it's a hell lot.

This added a plenty lot of pain.

He can't seem to understand, which I hope he can.

It's not above forgiveness, it not about being angry or not.

It's about how many pieces the fragile and vulnerable have broken into, and how it can be fixed.

Left`alone
7/31/2007 08:26:00 PM™

30 July 2007

He did what the other 'he' did in the past.

I reckon that all guys are like this.

Or maybe, I am the girl who make all guys do that.

Everyone's so happy around me.

But I feel odd and outta place of the happiness.

Some thots that I hate to have.. =(

Left`alone
7/30/2007 09:38:00 PM™

29 July 2007

What do you wanna achieve in life?

I want a great job, great family, great girl friend who understand me inside out and great pets.

Left`alone
7/29/2007 11:02:00 PM™

28 July 2007

I am done with my song. PEOPLE, ASK ME FOR IT OKAY. =DD

Left`alone
7/28/2007 07:36:00 PM™

14 July 2007

I got new babies!!

I mean..

I got new Syrian babies!!

They're hamsters btw. hahaha

One is named blackie, cuz he's black, and the other named brownie, cuz she's brown.

I LOVE EM.
SO CUTE!!

Left`alone
7/14/2007 11:58:00 PM™

13 July 2007

爱得越深，伤得越重

How should I write the lyrics for my song...?

Left`alone
7/13/2007 02:01:00 PM™

12 July 2007

Mental note : Do not be late for Business of Music. Unless I feel damn rich, which I will never ever will.

MeiPoh's late for BuM today. Around 15mins.

And as late comer has to pay 1buck per head per 5mins late, there's 15ppl in class, and she's late for 15mins, it totals up to 45bucks. o.O

Class fund. $$.

Second half of BuM lesson was held at FC4 over drinks.

And I realise that many many MANY people are staring at us.

I bet they're staring at Jimmy. Hahaaa.

He's afterall, one of the judges for Campus Superstar.

=.='' =.='' =.=''

My nose is running away now. =(

I gonna get hammies on Saturday. My boy boy promise to buy for me.

And i suspect one of my hammies, Hotcake, is pregnant. Wwaaaa.

One sad news.

Yang Pei Xian Lao Shi passed away on Wednesday morning.

It's... aw. I can't describe.

He's such a nice and talented person.

Life's just too short to pounder over unhappiness.

Left`alone
7/12/2007 09:27:00 PM™

10 July 2007

I GOT LOCKED AT HOME AND CANT GET MY ARSE TO SCHOOL!

>.<

You know why?

Cuz my boy stayed over yesterday and this morning, he took my keys and went to school. I thought that the spare key would be there!

But end up, my mum took the spare key and went out and I only realise that when i was about to leave. How dumb hor?

This is damn damn fucking funny.

Left`alone
7/10/2007 09:13:00 AM™

08 July 2007

My bro locked himself and his gf in his room.

I suspect that they are having sex.

Cuz they took some time to open the door when my dad knocks on it.

Left`alone
7/08/2007 09:21:00 PM™

Haiya. I keep having headache when i woke up. Reason being, not enough rest. =(

Anyway, I just bought 60bucks worth of stuff at Century Sq Metro cuz they're having closing down sale!! Almost everything was 50% off! Wahahahahaha. I saved around 30bucks I guess.

Gotten :

2 pair of shoes for myself.

A pillow for him

A set of undies for me.

3boxer shorts for him.

Heh ehhh!

And there's this Japan fair or something at Tampines Mall.

Bought chocolate souffles [if i spell it correctly] for 9 bucks.

Very dark chocolate-y.

I rather the cheese one though. Haha.

Sq's bday bbq. Walk a damn hell long distance. =.=''

But had to leave early cause i brought my cousins along and they had to reach home early.

And anyway, today's Masami and Peicheng's birthday.

Left`alone
7/08/2007 12:02:00 PM™

04 July 2007

I don't seem to be having a life when school starts. How...?? Very the sad one leh.. =(

My day's like, going to school, 'locking' myself in the lab and do my assignments. If not, then is lessons lessons and lessons. Either that, or recordings going on. Argh. Or! Doing music theory on the train!

There's recording on monday from like.. 2 to 8pm i guess. Hahaa. One whole afternoon in the studio man! But i don't mind recording actually. lol.

Ahh. And either all the above, Im just at home. Time is no enough for me!

Gosh. There's so many things I wanna do la.

I wanna renew my whole set of cosmetics and beauty products.

I wanna buy a new lappy/desktop.

I wanna shop shop shop for more clothes.

I wanna buy a new new new electric guitar.

I wanna.. finish my song.

OH yea. Whoever is interested in filing up the lyrics for my song, do approach me for the midi version. I am really lack of inspiration although Cheryl suggested the Nan Yang song.

It goes like...

Ye Ye qu le zhong guo

[Grand dad went China]

Hai mei you hui lai

[Not back yet]

And bla bla bla.. And the word nan yang came in somewhere between. lol

So cute la! hahaha.

But i have a title for my song. Maybe i can name it 'Huai Nian', 'Si Nian' or 'Xiang Nian'. It's a song about missing someone who's no longer there. Like he/she has passed away.

Anyway, Cheryl is cute. She thought that Xin Shan is Singapore cause of the word 'xin'. But that actually means Johor Bahru. =.= Hahaaa.

OK.. Where am i.. hmm.

Oh ya.. My char in Maple is already lvl 34.

So cool hor. Hahaa. But I told my boy.. when I feel bored playing it, I will quit. Then maybe like in the past, I'll pick it up again in 2 to 3 years. LOL.

He wanna faint liao. =x

Lalalala.

Hey girl.. I wanna go shopping!!

And SQ's birthday is coming. SO fast!

My birthday seem to be yesterday and pooof! IT'S JULY ALREADY.

That means, Masami's and Peicheng's birthday is approaching too. They're born on the same date you know.

Gosh. music theory is giving me a headache. There's a lot to do........

Im reading this book currently, and got quite amazed by it.

It's about this girl from Chicago, she went to NY and ended up landing herself in a 20k debt as she was unable to resist the temptation of branded fashion. Oh. And i find it so cool. She can just buy Gucci purse, Prada coats, Banana Republic apparels and Abercrombie and Fitch clothes are like sooo cheapskate. o.0 Only if Im that rich man. To them, Topshop is like our CK departmental store. Haha.

So, as she's in debt, and having no money to return, she set up a website asking for donation.

That's still alright right?

But she suceeded in paying off her 20k debt through that web man!

AMAZING LOR.

And the other day, I found out that it is a story based on true events. Wtf!

I still asked Cheryl what 'non-fiction' means to double confirm. Hahaaa. Cuz they wrote.. 'this story is non-fictional.'

Only if i can do that la. And i learnt from the story that you do not have to pay tax from whatever u got as the amount of money is donation.

Haaaaahahaha.

Interesting.

BYEBYE!

[Ended abruptly. Cuz this post is so random. SO i shall end randomly. Waaaaa!]

Left`alone
7/04/2007 12:55:00 PM™